So here we are

I thought my bi-annual quarter life crisis wasn't going to come around this year. And, it hasn't really. Cause somehow, even with life unplanned 3 months from now (and I always plan 6 months in advance.) I'm okay with where I am, and wherever the hell it takes me. My fortune cookie did say: you are heading in the right direction. And that's gotta be worth something.

But with that said, I still somehow, after a string of unexpected events, that's how they always happen, don't they? managed to deactivate my Facebook. And, if you know me, only under some dramatic circumstance would I go about doing this because, Facebook is my coke, and I'm not even saying that lightly.

But I won't last because I never do, and it's a good thing I've never done coke cause I've found, I'm an easy addict to the things I can't live without. Of course, it's only in the momentary do I believe this to be true.

I could give it up forever, and write a blog about it. Isn't that what we do? But nah, going on 6 hours. Will probably only last 24. Maybe 48, if this is incredibly severe.

on chances

After all this time, nothing's the same anymore.

Most days, really, most days, you don't cross my mind.

But sometimes, somedays, I wish I still knew you.


I guess this would apply all across the board.  All those I once had friendships with, and those events that transpired over tabletop conversations, the manner of ease in banter levied with subtext, but momentary leaps, without heart, don't really stand a chance against daylight, do they?

Not much has changed in 16 years.

on making time for many men, many many many men

me: "I HAVE TO WRITE A PAPER"
ang: "oh well, gotta live life first"

August 1992. Washington, D.C. On the National Mall.

This was the same day my mom bought me a snow cone from one of those street vendors, which were my favorite, and I accidentally dropped it and started to cry. I don't even know why, somehow I thought they were irreplaceable. But she got me another one. And then it started to pour. It was one of those storms that leaves as abruptly as it arrives. By the time we got to our car we were drenched. And I remember, after we got home and changed, we all went to Chuck E Cheese.

I had a pretty good childhood.

dreamers

Dialogues between friends. Momentary ruminations. I always had a soft spot for frank candidness.

5:28 AM: move in with me
5:28 AM: it's mutually beneficial
5:28 AM: we would both have a blast!


3:02:32 AM: there is alot of cool stuff i wanna show you
3:02:56 AM: like little bars and restaurants
3:03:11 AM: wanna go to the beach
3:03:18 AM: va beach is only 1hr and 30 minutes away
3:03:32 AM: just me and you
3:03:44 AM: lets do that for a weekend
3:06:02 AM: we should make a date
3:06:25 AM: i usually dont plan ahead
3:06:30 AM: but i kinda want to for this
3:07:47 AM: im marking it on my icalender
3:08:04 AM: "romantic getaway

3:08:16 AM Kim Ha: ew
3:08:18 AM Kim Ha: don't make me puke
3:08:21 AM Kim Ha: dont call it that
3:08:22 AM Kim Ha: hahah

3:08:25 AM: HAHAHA
3:08:49 AM: "lovers retreat"

3:08:56 AM Kim Ha: ew.
3:08:57 AM Kim Ha: no